Day 50 - New York State of Mind

You still with me? I'm here I swear, I've just been MIA for a few days. Unfortunately this time I was MIA from the blog and the gym, so I'm feeling pretty blah today. I actually feel like I did 2 months ago before I even started working out. I'm tired, feeling lazy, and just kind of down. (That's why I'm writing this blog on Monday morning - I was too lazy to write last night but told myself I had to this morning). I only went to the gym 2 days last week, and both those days were lift and sculpt, which has a little cardio but not enough for it to count. And then I went to NYC this weekend and walked around a lot of Friday, but that's also not quite the same as spinning for 50 minutes.

Going to NYC was great - I got to see my family, do some shopping, and went to the opera on Saturday. My only problem with NYC is that it does a number on my self confidence and body image. I know it's not true, but I feel like everyone there is thin, gorgeous, and stylish. And then there I am with my sneakers and rain jacket. I can deal with that though - I'm not from NYC and that's okay. My biggest problem is when I went shopping. NOTHING FIT! And I really think the sizes are based on the shape of a 12 year old. I mean seriously! Why do you have a bunch of size 25 jeans (based on waist measurement), but no 30's?? And can you make a pair of jeans that aren't skinny??

I found lots of cute jackets and shirts, but every time I tired on a pair of jeans that would normally be my size, I couldn't even get them up my legs. And then I went up one or two sizes and managed to squeeze them on, but the waist was way too big! It was really frustrating since I could really use some new jeans. And I'm worried that now that I'm strength training my legs are just going to keep getting bigger and more muscular, and this problem is going to keep growing (no pun intended, but it made me giggle). AAAHHH!

Does anyone out there have this problem, and if so what do you do? Is there a brand of jeans you like, that actually fit you? Am I going to have to start to get my jeans tailored so they fit properly? I'm lost, and feeling down about everything - my lack of clothes that fit, my frustration about how I look - I'm just feeling blah. That's really the best way to describe it.

At least I'm back at the gym this afternoon for lift and sculpt, and the women in that class are great and really encouraging. I just hope it'll get me out of this funk. Til this afternoon.

~Catie

Minutes spent working out this week: None*

*yet