1) I can kick myself, get down, and just wallow in the fact that I "failed" once again
or...
2) I can look at what when wrong, as well as what went right, and try learn from it
I think I'm going to take option 2.
I read through some of my previous blog posts from last year, and it's cheesy to say, but me back then was inspiring! Which leads me to ask, "What the hell happened??" Seriously! I was so ready to go this time last year I could have convinced Sarah Palin to vote for Obama. That's how motivated I was. And it actually lasted for a few months, which I am pretty proud of since it's probably the longest a workout plan has lasted for me. And a lot of it had to do with this blog - I felt like I had to post, which kept me going to workout.
But I soon realized that it wasn't the best plan. I couldn't have the blog be my sole motivation; it had to come from me. But somehow it all blended together, and I started to feel obligated to the blog. I got annoyed with the forced need to write, and I took it out on my workouts. Which, looking back on it, was really stupid because the only person I was hurting was me. It's not like anyone reading this would be mad if I didn't post every day! Everyone knows what it's like to be busy, and when things start to become an obligation they become very difficult to do. At least for me, at this point in my life.
I want working out to be something I actually enjoy, which is something I've never really experienced. It's fun for a time, but it's not something I really look forward to. And, to be honest, I'm not really sure what to do. Do I only do workouts that I really like, and risk it becoming boring after a time, or do I force myself to do workouts that I don't really like, but I know will be good in the long run? Is there a happy medium? If there is, I'm still looking for it (and if you know, please share your secrets!!).
So, here's the deal. I'm now 27 years old - not getting any younger as they say. I currently weigh 155 pounds. Boom. There it is. For the whole webiverse to see. But, the number doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that I get winded and tired easily, and that it's only going to get harder to get healthier the older I get. So, as many have done before and will do after, my resolution is to get healthier.
My goal is to gain muscle, lose some inches, and just feel healthier. I could keep track of my weight, but gaining muscle gains weight, so that seems counterintuitive seeing as how I want to gain muscle. So I am going to judge it on how I look in the mirror, how my clothes fit, and my energy level.
Right now my plan is to walk 30 minutes every day on the treadmill. We have a treadmill in our basement, which is a huge help, and I hope to walk every morning before work. Why then? Well, because I know myself, and I will come up with every excuse in the book to not work out when I get home from work. Never fail. So I'm not giving myself the chance. At this point in the game, I don't trust myself to do what's best for me after a whole day of work, so I have to get it out of the way early, or else it won't work.
I'm also going to try and experiment with different workouts, similar to what I did last time around. Difference is, I will have already walked in the morning for 30 minutes, so if something is a bust I still worked out. I don't have to get down because I didn't get a great workout if I already walked in the morning, but I still have the chance to find some workouts I really like. Today will be the first try with a ballet-pilates hybrid class I'm taking after work. I'll let you know how it goes!
So, there it is. Catie Gets Healthy Part 2. I don't know what the future holds for me and getting healthy, but I have hope for this plan. And at this point, hope is the best motivator.
~Catie
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